This is how i feel....

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

This is how I feel right now...

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Hello this is Lauryn writing from the corn fields of Ohio I just wanted to say farewell to a couple people who I hope will read this! Ok so here it goes:

Joan: When I saw you cry on the last day of school that was one of the first times that it hit me that I was leaving. I will miss ya a lot sweetie with all the Haywa (is that how you spell it) outings and cross country runs with gossip included!I hope you have an awesome senior year and will enjoy every minute of it.

Gen: Hi Gen!! I hope you are having an awesome time in New Zealand! I know you will be glad to be home! I hope you bought a lot when you were in Singapore. I am totally coming to New Zealand with Lindsey to visit you! Lindsey will see Laura but there are ways of leaving here in transit airports!!haha just kidding. Enjoy your summer and i will try to stay in contact.

Yuna-a: Hey I am not sure if you will come to this xanga but if you do hey! I was not able to write in your yearbook so I am kinda writing what i would write here! Thanks for being someone who was always fun during all the crazy adventures that happened in our friendship. Through Prom and Homecoming, watching sexy soccer players during APAC or going to the movies on Base you were always the most generous and kind person Ihave ever met. I hope to meet up with you sometime or just stay in contact. Have fun this summer!

Charlina: OO Charlina we have so many memories over the years. It all began the end of freshman year and the early part of sophmore year we became friends.You have been there for me many of times. From the crazy family I have to the interesting guys that I have dated you have been a friend  thats been by my side the entire time. i miss ya loads and we are meeting up sometime in the future somewhere! Probably New York!! Thanks for all the memories and laughs!

Erin Doodle: O doodle! what to say about you! I can't put into words how great of a friend you have been to me giving me advice and having movie nights at your house. Your family is awesome tooo! Tell your Dad Edgar did not do any of the motions that he did on your mom that one day. We just played tennis.

Zarina!!!: Hiiiiii! Thanks for being a fun friend during this year! Its been awesome shopping with you Itaewon to partying with you in Shinchon. I miss the fun talks we had or riding your bus with all the interesting kids!! I hope you are having an awesome time in Australia.

Bus Buddies: Hello to all the people that rode B bus! I will miss the good times that I had on the bus with all the fun and interesting conversations that we had. Thanks for everything!

Noni: Hi! I wanted to just say thanks for letting me do a bunch of interesting projects during the school year at your house!! It was fun with your mom making good food all the time. Hope you enjoy the future and have a good summer!

For all the other people i will probably write another one of these mabye but thanks for the memories!! bye

hey all,

i saw a list of 20 things youd say to people (without mentioning who, or the number of people) and think its a really cute idea.... so i had to make a list of my own! here goes: 

1) You are a beautiful person, my best friend, and have half of my heart. even though we havent seen each other for years, i know we will one day. I trust you with my life and I love you so much.

2) I've known you for years and we have remained such good friends throughout everything. You've been like a rock and we've gone through so much together. Stay true, stay you.

3) I wish I knew you better... sometimes I cant tell what you are thinking but i will always be your friend. always.

4) I will never forget the memories ive shared with you, no matter where we end up in life. I'm here whenever you need me, just a phone call away.

5) I hope I get to know you better... youre an awesome person, a dependable friend and really nice guy.

6) Sometimes i wish you were happier...i wish you'd see that it just makes everything so much easier to deal with. Trust me on this one, ive been there.

7) The best way to kill someone is with love. So you'd better watch out for me because I will definately try to kill you!

8) It annoys me how you follow every trend, in almost every form like, all the time! Its ok to have your own mind and just be cool with who you are. Even though nobody really is... its good to try at least.

9) Wisdom and intelligence come in many forms... i wish you were more open to different ideas. Believe it or not, very little things in life are black and white. In fact, most of it falls into the debatable grey area.. so try to be more open minded.

10) You're worth so much more than you give yourself credit for.. don't let people, anyone, bring you down.. but dont bring them down either.

11) Your smile has kept me going through, like everything... i love you (not that way ) and please email me more often!

--ok, well i am out of (coughcheesycough) things to say so im out

I got a House in Ohio! Hurray i feel like i have a home.Charlina i am so bored that i decided to do that list to myself. This is what i got Bold is true:

never kissed someone of the same sex.
02. I see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
09. I can't live without lipgloss
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I've had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation.
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I'm spiritual but not religious.
21. My first kiss was unexpected
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen She's All That at least 5 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I have a lot drama.
41. No one really knows me.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm a hopeless romantic.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am addicted to coffee.
50. I am very outgoing at times.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I'm extremely mellow.
60. I contemplate suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer

65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love school.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I tend to feel inadequate.
74. I love to kiss females on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
79. President Bush is a complete and utter moron.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I dont take critism well.
82. Conformity is stupid. (even though its everywhere.)
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive. (Come on, you have to admit it)
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.

90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex

91. I don't like my nose.
92. I am very religious.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
96. I love music.
97. I'm in love.
98. I have problems letting go of people.
99. I tend to think with my heart more then my head.
100. I don't really like ice cream